Wednesday, June 13, 2012

The big 2-3!

Yesterday was my birthday! I'm 23 now. I told myself that calories shouldn't count on birthdays and I'm not going to stress over that. It was a good day.

I started out with lounging on the couch watching Gossip Girl on Netflix followed by a visit from my dad with some cold hard birthday cash. He told me to treat myself to lunch. I changed into some real clothes and made my way into Christiansburg and did a Target trip. I know it's not just me when I say this - Target sucks the money out of me. I can just wander the isles and pick up this and that and end up with 50 dollars worth of stuff. Thankfully I exercised a little more self control and only spend about 20.

Lunch was at a new place in town, Sakura. It's one of those fast food Japanese places and it was so. freaking. good! I got the chicken and steak combo and added broccoli (gotta get those greens in somehow!) I ate and ate and ate and still ended with what looked like a full plate of food. Great portions (well, not really for weight loss haha). I took my leftovers with me for an afternoon snack.

My next and final stop was Starbucks. Working at Sbux, you get a free pound of coffee a week. It's a pretty sweet deal! I'm all stocked up so this week I got coffee for the bf's friend Stephen. Since it was my birthday, I treated myself to a birthday cake pop! Believe it or not, this was my first cake pop! Very yummy. I also got a captain crunch frappuccino, but it wasn't made right and tasted kind of off.

When I got home, I did some more vegging out watching GG and then showered and got ready for a night out! My boyfriend came down from Charlottesville and we went out for dinner and drinks with my sister and two friends Amanda and Kristina. We went to our favorite local place, Sharkey's. Sharley's has the best happy hour deals on drinks - 2 dollar doubles! - and their food is pretty legit too. I got the No-Name Burger made with a veggie burger. I'm not a vegetarian by any means, but that burger has so many flavorful toppings that a big beef patty overshadows the other tastes. It has pickled jalapenos, cream cheese, chipotle sauce, lettuce, and tomato. Most delicious!

I drank quite a lot. I love happy hour and pretty much anything mixed with rum. My friends also ordered me some drinks. I tried to be responsible though and cut myself off before I could get too crazy. It was a great night! A great birthday altogether. And today I'm back on the diet train. Choo choo!

Monday, June 11, 2012

Embarrassed!

Wow, off the wagon again. I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to weight loss. I'll go strong for a few weeks, start to feel good about myself again, even see a change in the scale and then BAM! I'll binge. And once I binge, it's really hard for me to get control again. I rationalize it with stupid thoughts:
"I already messed up once today, I might as well eat whatever I want for the rest of the day."
"I'll take the weekend off and start back on Monday."
"Since I'm gonna start hardcore tomorrow, tonight I can eat a million calories worth of fast food because it's my last time ever (EVER - for real this time)."

I'm pretty tired of my excuses. I'm down 15 pounds from where I started but I've been stuck there for about a month thanks to unhealthy eating habits creeping their way back in. I also let my gym membership lapse. I'm actually afraid that I have gained some of the 15 pounds back, but for now I'm staying away from the scale because it makes me sad and is not my friend.

So here is my plan: My mom (who is also overweight) is going to her 30th class reunion in September - the same weekend that I am a bridesmaid in a snazzy wedding. She wants to shed a few pounds before her trip so she started going to Weight Watchers. I know the system works, it's science based and helps you choose good foods rather than eliminating any foods in particular. I can't afford to go with her, but I'm going to count points on my own.

I'm going to go to the gym today and re-join. I really enjoyed it when I went and there is no reason for me not to go. I love the classes (Zumba and BodyPump in particular) and the owner created a fitness plan specifically for me.

In other news, I started a new job at Starbucks! I love it so far. The only downside is no nail polish :(