Embarrassed!

Wow, off the wagon again. I'm my own worst enemy when it comes to weight loss. I'll go strong for a few weeks, start to feel good about myself again, even see a change in the scale and then BAM! I'll binge. And once I binge, it's really hard for me to get control again. I rationalize it with stupid thoughts:
"I already messed up once today, I might as well eat whatever I want for the rest of the day."
"I'll take the weekend off and start back on Monday."
"Since I'm gonna start hardcore tomorrow, tonight I can eat a million calories worth of fast food because it's my last time ever (EVER - for real this time)."

I'm pretty tired of my excuses. I'm down 15 pounds from where I started but I've been stuck there for about a month thanks to unhealthy eating habits creeping their way back in. I also let my gym membership lapse. I'm actually afraid that I have gained some of the 15 pounds back, but for now I'm staying away from the scale because it makes me sad and is not my friend.

So here is my plan: My mom (who is also overweight) is going to her 30th class reunion in September - the same weekend that I am a bridesmaid in a snazzy wedding. She wants to shed a few pounds before her trip so she started going to Weight Watchers. I know the system works, it's science based and helps you choose good foods rather than eliminating any foods in particular. I can't afford to go with her, but I'm going to count points on my own.

I'm going to go to the gym today and re-join. I really enjoyed it when I went and there is no reason for me not to go. I love the classes (Zumba and BodyPump in particular) and the owner created a fitness plan specifically for me.

In other news, I started a new job at Starbucks! I love it so far. The only downside is no nail polish :(